Later Gator! Lyrics

I crept through your garden
Hoping I would feel at ease
Being out here amongst something
That I know had brought you peace
And I promise I’ve been trying
To do it like you showed me
But I have been
Rejected by its leaves

And I know you knew I loved you
But I wish I’d said it more
Because I have this awful feeling
That you died feeling ignored
And it’s so fucking typical
While everybody grieves
I find a way to make it about me

So was it hard to say goodbye
And have to do so with a brave face
While the people you look up to
Cry and wish they could take your place
Did that make you feel loved
Or did it just make you feel guilty
That’s enough
I’m not ready to know

And I dragged my
Feet across your hallway
Hoping I’d melt through the floor
Before I made it to your bedroom
And have a stand off with your door
I’ve never been in there without you
Who know if it’s even still there
I tuck my tail
And retreat downstairs

So was it hard to say goodbye
And have to do so with a brave face
While the people you look up to
Cry and wish they could take your place
Did that make you feel loved
Or did it just make you feel guilty
That’s enough
I’m not ready to know

And I
Couldn’t be more of a coward
If I were to try
Cause When you needed closure
I wouldn’t let you say goodbye
And I thought that was noble
At least at the time
As if you needed someone
To tell you you’re fine
As if not letting go of you
Would have somehow saved your life

So was it hard to say goodbye
And have to do so with a brave face
While the people you look up to
Cry and wish they could take your place
Did that make you feel loved
Or did it just make you feel guilty
That’s enough
I’m not ready to know

So was it hard to say goodbye
And have to do so with a brave face
While the people you look up to
Cry and wish they could take your place
Did that make you feel loved
Or did it just make you feel guilty
That’s enough
I don’t ever wanna know